my cousin will be acting in a simple skit presented by my church for the Good Friday event. She stayed back for some video recording today. but there was a problem. in the scene they were taking today, she was supposed to cry but she couldnt. i wanted to help her so i brought her to a corner, told her to nurture her saddness and tears. my intention to teach her how to cry, resulted me in rolling tears..
i cried, because the setting was good (you know good dark little corner). most importantly, those tears were long kept.. sooo deeply hidden in me, has been looking for a way to squeeze them out...
starting april, it will be a tough 3 months ahead. the toughest should be in june... end of june....i never understand this could be so tough... last time a sister in Christ share with me how she wanted a holiday at the peak of the toughness, i couldnt understand why she needed to do so... but now, when i am experiencing it myself, i want to do the same.
last sat, i brought this to dw, telling him i want to go for a holiday end of june. with much effort, i managed to 'squeeze' out my reason, and of course resulted with teary eyes... but i hid them well... i guess he did not see them...
i really hope that by God's grace, this thing can end. and only God's miracle can put a full stop to it. But God seems to want me to walk through this thing...
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