have sorted and uploaded the children's growing up photos recently. by looking at the pics, many memories were flashed back.
the moment when i realised i was preggy with yongen... it was such a miracle to me... i thought i would have difficulty conceiving due to my irregular menses... even the doc also told me my chance is lower than normal women... but i was sooo keen to have a kid soon... actually for the sake of my in laws... cuz i thought they already near 70 and they would sure love to have at least a grandchild soon.... i myself grew up, being sooo close to my granny... thus i love my kids to have the 'granny love' kind of childhood too...
when i noticed my first preggy is a girl, i thought my in law and parents would be disappointed... i mean i thought most elderlys love to have grandson... in fact i myself felt disappointed and cried when the scan showed its a girl... dw and i kept thinking we would have a boy first... but later that, i apologosed to my unborn gal and accepted the fact... actually its good to have gal first.. she really helps alot...
after giving birth to my gal, i thought of having another boy asap... thought that it would be pleasing to my in law, hubby and of course my parents side... and i myself were hoping to parent a boy too... Thank God, he answered prayer. my second child is indeed a boy... a wonderful cute boy... but after having my boy, i realised my inlaw actually prefers gal to boy... hmmm~~~~
u wont believe this, while i was still in hospital after giving birth to my first two kids, i already hoping and planning in my mind when am i gonna have my next kid... kekeke... i am not intimidated by the child birth process at all... in fact i like the feel of giving birth... i love the anticipation... i enjoy the moment when i finally meet my tummy products... kekeke...
dw was the one who actually 'kiv' the third child arrival... and this made me thought he only wanted 2... later then he told me he didnt want me to be too stressed out... if the kids gap are close, it would be very difficult to handle... he said it would be ideal if the second one is 3 years gap from the third one... to me, its such a long wait....
when yongqi was about 2 years old, out of our expectation, i was pregnant! but that baby did not make it... i miscarried at week 6, only found out when it was at 9th week... that was a very big blow to both dw and i... even yongen was sad about the news. this experience really hit me hard... i treasure even more my pregnancy from then..
I waited and waited, prayed and prayed... asking God when would He send me another precious baby... My faithful God finally allow me to pregnant again 7 months after my miscarriage.. this time, i hope that it could be another boy... cuz dw wants another boy... and i guess my parent side would love to have one more grandson too... and my faithful God grants me my wish...
now i am 32 weeks preggy... since my gynae wants to induce me at week 38, i am 6 weeks away from meeting my yongjie... how excited i am... esp seeing friends' newborns around me popping out one by one... sooo looking forward...
i realised dw has been sooo busy recently eversince school reopens... he is as busy as that time when he first teach... i remember that time i was soooo depressed due to his busyness... when he gets busy, he gets tired. so i have to most time attend the kids myself... this time round, i find that i am able to handle his busyness better than last time.. maybe its cuz we both got used to each other style and routine so we know when we should step in and when we should give each other space... another reason is, the kids have grown big le... sometimes yongen can really help me alot, be it task wise or emotional sharing part... last time i had only dw to tslk to.. now yongen can be another listener and helper...
i really thank God for my family, hubby and children... other than that, my church my friends also contributed alot in my life. my church pig and dog friends never fail to help me attend my kids... they also helped me release very much of my stress too by asking me out to spend money... kekeke...i really feel blessed. really. thanks to all of you. thanks to my good and faithful God.
