shoo shoo jaundice!!!

time flies... confinement over soon... nanny will be leaving tomorrow. thank God and thank for meizhen who recommended this nanny to me. she is different compare to my first two... my previous confinement were, i cant wait for nanny to go back so that i can handle the baby myself... for this time round, i feel bit sad that she leaving soon :(.... frankly, at first i did have some complain of her... hehe... i find her quite kaypo... but later then, i find that other than tt, she is ok... (oh... to yongen, nanny is too naggy... kekeke... can see that yongen and nanny do not like each other... once caught en whispered to nanny "you dun keep saying me hor (in chinese)" i find it so funny... but of course i did not laugh it out la)

yongqi's onli problem now is his jaundice... its still in an upward trend despite he is already 27 days old... doctor from polyclinic has done thyroid test, urine test, liver test on him le.. all tests are cleared (thx God)... so now dr suspect that its prolonged jaundice due to breastmilk.. but dr also commented that at this age, even it is bm jaundice, the index should be maintained at certain level, if not down trend... thus he is worry that it might be due to some other hidden reason...

dr advised me to introduce formula for at least 2 days before the next test so as to prove that it is indeed due to breastmilk... i was very reluctant to do that! my friend suggested that i could instead of doing what the dr advised, alternate feed the baby with bm and formula... hmm... i dun feel gd abt giving in to formula la...

yesterday we went for another check up... the jaundice was still going up.. dr asked us to check again coming friday. if it still uptrend, then they will refer us to kk for thorough check...

haiz... i was rather worried abt fri jaundice check... if we really need to go to kk, then it would be quite troublesome... what if yongjie need to be admitted to kk? noooo..... at that point of time, i was really "six gods no main" (in chinese, liu shen wu zhu)... i called kk lactation nurse, east shore lactation nurse and breastfeeding support group to leave messages. after then, i was too 'luan', i asked my nanny to go to super market to purchase a tin of formula powder. i decided to adopt the alternate feeding schedule.

later then all the parties returned me calls... all of them encouraged me to continue with breastfeeding. they assured me that even it is bm jaundice, the jaundice wont do any harm to the baby. if the jaundice is due to other reason, then bm is even more essential to curb the prob. they also said that i should encourage yongjie to drink even more so that he can pass out the bilirubin in his poo... the breastfeeding support person, after hearing that when i am feeding jie, he always squim and twist, keep popping the nipple in and out... the person said maybe yongjie wanted to pee or poo but he did not want to do it in the diaper... she forwarded some info on this to me...

in the evenning, we gave yongjie his first formula feed. after 3 hours, i latched him for bm. he didnt take much. he even puked on me! i was soooo frustrated!!!!

at night, i tossed and turned. i prayed in my heart, asked God for guidance and wisdom. should i continue with the formula? or press on to feed him my bm? the thought of next feeding would be formula again made me feel guilty and angry with myself!

thus at that moment, i decided to give up the formula, press on with my bm. and after reading the breastfeeding support person's email, i took out jie's diaper today and put him on potty after he squimed and twisted, popped my nipple during feeding. and woohoo.... he really pee and poo! i was so happy! kekeke... very the good leh!!!!

really need to pray for yongjie! Og God, pls heal yongjie his jaundice. let the index come down. thank you God! in Jesus name, Amen!

Many many thoughts...

Yongjie is 12 days old le... Everything is good and fine! I really thank God for all things. I never know how blessed I am till my confinement nanny keeps saying I very 'yong' (fit) and recover very fast.. She told me many of mummies she attended took abt two weeks to recover from wound, whereas I look so well since the day she saw me (which is day 2 after given birth).. She commented I dun look like like I just given birth at all! Praise God!

Really thank God for good milk flow and supply! Yongjie has been very well fed since day 4 and now he will always pay me with a big 'burp' after each meal! Kekeke....

The another thing to give thank is yongjie's jaundice. Though it's still under observation by Polyclinic, doc said he is mature enough so need not phototheraphy. Woohoo! So glad that he dun need to return to the hospital for light like his two elder siblings. (I was actually in stdndby mode that he would be the same as en and Qi lor)

yongjie really makes me proud of him.. He is so adorable and alert. He could trace noise and turn towards it.. He gives good eye contact. He is very mature.. He also establish good latch on skill since he was two days old. Very clever boy indeed.

Yesterday friends from mer visited me. Before they left, my lady friend hugged me. The hug sent me into thoughts again.. I remember end of 2008 the same friend hugged me to console me lost of yongle. Ya I suddenly thought of yongle... I never forget abt yongle. I will always remember to claim him from Jesus when I get to heaven. :))

yesterday dw brought Qi to the church. I was sort of quite worry abt him as he just recovered from viral fever. Thus I sent SMS to some of my trusted friends, asking them to monitor Qi and not let him take heaty or cold stuff.. Really thank God for these church sisters. Cuz of them, I can be very 'fang xin'! Ya, thanks alot sisters. Love u all so much! Thanks for taking care of my kids..

Really have many thoughts... Guess I have too much time... Kekeke... Really thank God for my hubby my children my parents my siblings my in laws my church sis n bros..... Thank you all! Muck!!

recuperating at home

woohoo.. yongjie has finally meet the world... he is soooo cute...
he is indeed a big baby... weighing 4.015kg, head circumference of 37cm and length of 53cm!
hmm.... this time, though the gynae told me it would be a long labor, it was still the same 3hrs wait after the drip... (not taking the pill insertion time into consideration...)

the contraction started after the drip was used on me... i experimented the use of the laughing gas and realise that by using it, the contraction comes closer and more intense... meaning the process will be faster than when i use the breadthing technic to conquer my pain...

i started my drip at 1.35pm after the gynae break my water bag. she instructed the midwife to check on me at 4.30pm to see if i have any further dilation... she told me that if by then i was still not dilated, she would consider giving me c section. and of course she also instructed, in case i have the 'pang sai' feeling, i can get the midwife to check my dilation...

at about 3pm, i was getting bored and thought that maybe a check of dilation may motivate me to go on... so i pressed the nurse bell to request for a check... but the midwife refused to check on me.. she said that the gynae instructed to check at 4.30pm unless i have the 'pang sai' urge... else its better not to check too often... so i no choice, back to my waiting boredom...

at about 3.45pm, i thought i was having the pang sai feeling le.. though not very intensive... i wanted the midwife to check my dilation. so i sort of exaggerated my pang sai urge... the midwife (happen to be another one, not knowing the gynae's instruction one) checked on me and told me its 6cm dilated.. i was so happy to hear that and i told her she should call the gynae le as from my past experiences, 6cm to 10cm could be very fast happening for me.... from there on, i started to use my laughing gas more frequently...

the midwife called the gynae and passed me a message that she was on the way.. in case the contraction comes again, just use the gas.. do not push.. let the dilation reaches 10cm first...

as time passed, the contraction is really intensed... the pang sai feeling is so XXXXXXXX and i really feel like pushing le....but i couldnt! so i lept using the gas, suck suck suck till i high high high.... then when my contraction ceased, i would shout 'where is the doctor?'

finally the pushing urge was unbearable le... the midwife told me if i had to push, then do it slowly... and i did according to instruction.. finally BLINK* my gynae sppeared! wow... so happy and glad!!!

ok pushing excercise finally to be administered! hey i realised i had not much strength to push hard eh!!! the midwives held my thigh, my hubby by my side, lifted my head forward... arrrr~~~~~~~ damn! the head is sooo big lor....but still need to push eh.... so i pushed... and finally the head emerged... and from there, its the gan jiong part... as my bb shoulder could be slightly bigger than his head... so once the head emerged, its important to push all the way so that his shoulder wont be stucked in there (which is my gynae's biggest worry) so the atmosphere was sooo tensed... the midwives pushed my thigh further (and they were lucky i didnt kicked them) and my gynae stood up to encouraged me... my hubby kept asking me to push.... what a BIG SHIT!!!! ARRRRRR~~~~~ ya... and the big shit finally out!

phew! when the weighing machine showed 4.015kg... i felt as if i got my result slip from an important exam like that.... and the result was indeed worth to be proud of... kekeke... i hit my targeted weight for this baby... above 4kg!!!

thank God! i am recuperating well! the wound is not painful anymore... the bleeding is not that much le... even the milk flow is good now (on day 4 lor)... just now after feeding my lil boy, he return me with a big BURP!!! kekeke... thats very satisfying!!!

now what we are to fight against is the jaundice threat. we have to go to the polyclinic to have yongjie's blood checked on monday... keeping our fingers crossed... may the Lord bless yongjie...

also another prayer requirment is that yongjie has to adjust his morning and night routine... he should wake more in the day and sleep more in the night... last night he wasnt very co operative... yet today whole day, he slept peacefully... lil terrorist! but he is cute! very cute terrorist!

oh ya, dreamt of my en and qi last night also... i dreamt that cuixian jie, with dw's consent, has arranged to give my qi away... i was so sad... i saw qi with his 'foster daddy' and i wanted my qi back yet they refused to let me get near him... sob sob... i cried... even till i woke from my dream.... i thought, 'no one is taking away any of my children!!! they are the most precious thing i have ever had!!!'

this dream made me miss my two children en and qi... its ok... they will be back tml... :) maybe when they back, i will start to call tolong and hope the weekend comes quickly so that they can be sent away again! :P kekeke...

Wait wait wait... To welcome my yongjie soon

Here I am in the hospital... Damn! The place is having renovation so drilling noise on and off.. But come to think of it, also gd la, Bb come out will get use of noise!! Kekeke... Now monitoring Machine on me. I have managed to take quick nap of at least an hour... Hmm.. Quite comfy!! Jus now heard next labor ward's happening. The woman was screaming man!!! I was in my heart cheering and praying for her. The moment I heard the Bb crier, I was so happy that I almost reared for that mum! Well done mummy!! Kekeke...

I was quite worried yesterday when Gynae told me Bb is big and some scary news like I may need to wait very long this time bla bla bla... But somehoe choosing to come bac to Esh make me feel I made the right choice so far.. The place make me feel warmth and like at home.. I start to have peace the moment I entered the labor ward. The midwife assured me alot and I really appreciated.

Ok. Better savey iPhone batt for later use. Kekeke...

everything is ready for yongjie

i will be 39 weeks pregnant tomorrow!!!! yay!!!! so, i just have to wait for another 6 days if i am to go into induce labor.... hmm... will yongjie come out by himself instead?!?!

everything is set up and packed and ready for yongjie le... at first, seeing dw so busy with his teaching, i planned to let yongjie sleep in playpen bassinet for the first 6 months as it is easier to dismantle and setup than the baby cot... i thought to help dw save time and energy for all these tasks.... thus, i managed to ask from my sis a hand down playpen... well... i would say setting up a playpen though not so tedious but needed some skill too.... hmm.... at least took dw and me two days to try and error...

after setting up the playpen, i realise that the bassinet is not what i thought to be... it is only a net cover that goes over the top of the playpen!!! ok my sis laughed at me said me turtle from the mountain!!!! but i really thought it is a hung solid based section... looking at the playpen with bassinet... i started to doubt my big baby can sleep in it for 6 months... perhaps 3 months is already quite 'maybe case' as my kids weight record at 3 months was 8 to 8.8kg!!!! and i started to picture how nanny gonna change his diaper on the flimsy bassinet... and i thought worst case, she would have to make use of the computer table as temporary changing table...

i did not discuss my concern with dw... but we seem to have similar concern over this matter.. (finally we are in same frequency!!! kekeke..) one evening, dw mentioned that the playpen is too flimsy for the baby... he said he would rather set up the baby cot, and would not mind to dismantle it again after one month to move it into our room.... i was so glad to hear this... and we spent the next day, whole afternoon, trying to dismantle the playpen... (ok to dismantle it also need skill la...) and also set up the baby cot...

now cot is ready, hospital bag is ready, baby clothings are washed... what else? i guess i have done all the necessary!!! i even trying to get my confinement menu plan done during these few days... i dun wan to miss any of the gd nutritious food... yummy...

tomorrow is sunday service... i need to go church tomorrow... i foresee brothers and sisters will start asking 'why are you still here?' again cuz they did that last week and i told them i will be giving birth on 18th... hmm.. maybe i should paste a paper across my chest and write 'will go into induce labour on 26th if he still refuse to come out himself by then...' and last week my church uncle was kind enough to send someone buy me my fav big prawn mee for my breakfast cuz he thought i am going into confinement soon lor... so sweet...

ok yongjie... listen... ur daddy only rented the condominium 'mummy's womb' for 40 weeks!!! and due to your size, the latest date you have to move out is 26th march. thus, please get yourself ready to move out... i know its a wonderful place in there with private swimming pool and suana jacuzzi... but the outside world is even more interesting and many are waiting to meet you!!! so COME OUT!!!!!

Love from mummy and daddy and sister yongen and brother yongqi... (kekeke)

wait wait wait....

so when was the last time i blogged? kekeke... quite some times...

now i am 37 weeks 4 days pregnant!!! counting down counting down.... cant wait to see my little yongjie.... at first the gynae said wanna induce me at 38th weeks 4th days... which means exactly one week from now... but last week when i visited her, she said if cervix is not ready next wednesday, she would want to wait for another week!!! errrr~~~~ she has been quite flicker minded!!!! making me so confused!!!! anyway, i have prayed that God to take control of the date and timing... so i sort of have peace on this matter and decided to enjoy my waiting period.. (good thing is worth waiting...)

after discussion with dw, we agreed that if we are to wait for another one week, the best time to induce (if by then yongjie still refuse to come out himself) will be 26th Mar. As that day is a friday, i will have to admit the hospital myself while dw will join me after he finishes his teaching at school, which is abt 1pm... at that time, i should be having intensive contraction and ready to push lil fellow out (if the induce timing is similar to en and qi... both of them were induced at 9am and they were out at 2pm and 1.30pm respectively).. think like that also good.. dw can make good use of his time teach in sch and dun need to do any make up lesson after that... i quite like this arrangement...

so now i shall assume that yongjie will come out 26th instead... so count down count down... 15 more days to go.... count count count.... realise that i have waited for 37 weeks... yet another 2 weeks seem longer than 37!!!! errr~~~~ ok i shall be patient patient patient...

Thank God, my cousin is on school holiday till 18 April... so this period of time she will on and off be at my place help me entertain my two fellows so that i could have more time to rest... after i give birth, she will stay at my place during weekdays to help me attend to them so that the confinement nanny can concentrate on me and yongjie... i would say she is of great help!!!! really... but the only thing i worry is that after she leave, will the kids still demand that kind of entertainment which i will not be able to cater.... May the Lord help me in this area.. let the kids be able to enjoy ah yi's companionship, yet able to know that kind of companionship is a bonus.... and will not demand so after that...


friends out there, pls pray with me n keep me in ur prayer...
dear father God, please give me more wisdom, prepare my heart so tt i can effectively take care of my 3 kids. take control of the whole delivery process, clense every equipements that the medical staffs will be using to deliver yongjie... let the procedure be smooth and quick and painless... let yongjie be healthy and happy... thank you Lord for another precious child You are giving me. in Jesus name Amen...

give thanks

have sorted and uploaded the children's growing up photos recently. by looking at the pics, many memories were flashed back.

the moment when i realised i was preggy with yongen... it was such a miracle to me... i thought i would have difficulty conceiving due to my irregular menses... even the doc also told me my chance is lower than normal women... but i was sooo keen to have a kid soon... actually for the sake of my in laws... cuz i thought they already near 70 and they would sure love to have at least a grandchild soon.... i myself grew up, being sooo close to my granny... thus i love my kids to have the 'granny love' kind of childhood too...

when i noticed my first preggy is a girl, i thought my in law and parents would be disappointed... i mean i thought most elderlys love to have grandson... in fact i myself felt disappointed and cried when the scan showed its a girl... dw and i kept thinking we would have a boy first... but later that, i apologosed to my unborn gal and accepted the fact... actually its good to have gal first.. she really helps alot...


after giving birth to my gal, i thought of having another boy asap... thought that it would be pleasing to my in law, hubby and of course my parents side... and i myself were hoping to parent a boy too... Thank God, he answered prayer. my second child is indeed a boy... a wonderful cute boy... but after having my boy, i realised my inlaw actually prefers gal to boy... hmmm~~~~

u wont believe this, while i was still in hospital after giving birth to my first two kids, i already hoping and planning in my mind when am i gonna have my next kid... kekeke... i am not intimidated by the child birth process at all... in fact i like the feel of giving birth... i love the anticipation... i enjoy the moment when i finally meet my tummy products... kekeke...

dw was the one who actually 'kiv' the third child arrival... and this made me thought he only wanted 2... later then he told me he didnt want me to be too stressed out... if the kids gap are close, it would be very difficult to handle... he said it would be ideal if the second one is 3 years gap from the third one... to me, its such a long wait....

when yongqi was about 2 years old, out of our expectation, i was pregnant! but that baby did not make it... i miscarried at week 6, only found out when it was at 9th week... that was a very big blow to both dw and i... even yongen was sad about the news. this experience really hit me hard... i treasure even more my pregnancy from then..

I waited and waited, prayed and prayed... asking God when would He send me another precious baby... My faithful God finally allow me to pregnant again 7 months after my miscarriage.. this time, i hope that it could be another boy... cuz dw wants another boy... and i guess my parent side would love to have one more grandson too... and my faithful God grants me my wish...

now i am 32 weeks preggy... since my gynae wants to induce me at week 38, i am 6 weeks away from meeting my yongjie... how excited i am... esp seeing friends' newborns around me popping out one by one... sooo looking forward...

i realised dw has been sooo busy recently eversince school reopens... he is as busy as that time when he first teach... i remember that time i was soooo depressed due to his busyness... when he gets busy, he gets tired. so i have to most time attend the kids myself... this time round, i find that i am able to handle his busyness better than last time.. maybe its cuz we both got used to each other style and routine so we know when we should step in and when we should give each other space... another reason is, the kids have grown big le... sometimes yongen can really help me alot, be it task wise or emotional sharing part... last time i had only dw to tslk to.. now yongen can be another listener and helper...

i really thank God for my family, hubby and children... other than that, my church my friends also contributed alot in my life. my church pig and dog friends never fail to help me attend my kids... they also helped me release very much of my stress too by asking me out to spend money... kekeke...i really feel blessed. really. thanks to all of you. thanks to my good and faithful God.