Wait wait wait... To welcome my yongjie soon

Here I am in the hospital... Damn! The place is having renovation so drilling noise on and off.. But come to think of it, also gd la, Bb come out will get use of noise!! Kekeke... Now monitoring Machine on me. I have managed to take quick nap of at least an hour... Hmm.. Quite comfy!! Jus now heard next labor ward's happening. The woman was screaming man!!! I was in my heart cheering and praying for her. The moment I heard the Bb crier, I was so happy that I almost reared for that mum! Well done mummy!! Kekeke...

I was quite worried yesterday when Gynae told me Bb is big and some scary news like I may need to wait very long this time bla bla bla... But somehoe choosing to come bac to Esh make me feel I made the right choice so far.. The place make me feel warmth and like at home.. I start to have peace the moment I entered the labor ward. The midwife assured me alot and I really appreciated.

Ok. Better savey iPhone batt for later use. Kekeke...

everything is ready for yongjie

i will be 39 weeks pregnant tomorrow!!!! yay!!!! so, i just have to wait for another 6 days if i am to go into induce labor.... hmm... will yongjie come out by himself instead?!?!

everything is set up and packed and ready for yongjie le... at first, seeing dw so busy with his teaching, i planned to let yongjie sleep in playpen bassinet for the first 6 months as it is easier to dismantle and setup than the baby cot... i thought to help dw save time and energy for all these tasks.... thus, i managed to ask from my sis a hand down playpen... well... i would say setting up a playpen though not so tedious but needed some skill too.... hmm.... at least took dw and me two days to try and error...

after setting up the playpen, i realise that the bassinet is not what i thought to be... it is only a net cover that goes over the top of the playpen!!! ok my sis laughed at me said me turtle from the mountain!!!! but i really thought it is a hung solid based section... looking at the playpen with bassinet... i started to doubt my big baby can sleep in it for 6 months... perhaps 3 months is already quite 'maybe case' as my kids weight record at 3 months was 8 to 8.8kg!!!! and i started to picture how nanny gonna change his diaper on the flimsy bassinet... and i thought worst case, she would have to make use of the computer table as temporary changing table...

i did not discuss my concern with dw... but we seem to have similar concern over this matter.. (finally we are in same frequency!!! kekeke..) one evening, dw mentioned that the playpen is too flimsy for the baby... he said he would rather set up the baby cot, and would not mind to dismantle it again after one month to move it into our room.... i was so glad to hear this... and we spent the next day, whole afternoon, trying to dismantle the playpen... (ok to dismantle it also need skill la...) and also set up the baby cot...

now cot is ready, hospital bag is ready, baby clothings are washed... what else? i guess i have done all the necessary!!! i even trying to get my confinement menu plan done during these few days... i dun wan to miss any of the gd nutritious food... yummy...

tomorrow is sunday service... i need to go church tomorrow... i foresee brothers and sisters will start asking 'why are you still here?' again cuz they did that last week and i told them i will be giving birth on 18th... hmm.. maybe i should paste a paper across my chest and write 'will go into induce labour on 26th if he still refuse to come out himself by then...' and last week my church uncle was kind enough to send someone buy me my fav big prawn mee for my breakfast cuz he thought i am going into confinement soon lor... so sweet...

ok yongjie... listen... ur daddy only rented the condominium 'mummy's womb' for 40 weeks!!! and due to your size, the latest date you have to move out is 26th march. thus, please get yourself ready to move out... i know its a wonderful place in there with private swimming pool and suana jacuzzi... but the outside world is even more interesting and many are waiting to meet you!!! so COME OUT!!!!!

Love from mummy and daddy and sister yongen and brother yongqi... (kekeke)

wait wait wait....

so when was the last time i blogged? kekeke... quite some times...

now i am 37 weeks 4 days pregnant!!! counting down counting down.... cant wait to see my little yongjie.... at first the gynae said wanna induce me at 38th weeks 4th days... which means exactly one week from now... but last week when i visited her, she said if cervix is not ready next wednesday, she would want to wait for another week!!! errrr~~~~ she has been quite flicker minded!!!! making me so confused!!!! anyway, i have prayed that God to take control of the date and timing... so i sort of have peace on this matter and decided to enjoy my waiting period.. (good thing is worth waiting...)

after discussion with dw, we agreed that if we are to wait for another one week, the best time to induce (if by then yongjie still refuse to come out himself) will be 26th Mar. As that day is a friday, i will have to admit the hospital myself while dw will join me after he finishes his teaching at school, which is abt 1pm... at that time, i should be having intensive contraction and ready to push lil fellow out (if the induce timing is similar to en and qi... both of them were induced at 9am and they were out at 2pm and 1.30pm respectively).. think like that also good.. dw can make good use of his time teach in sch and dun need to do any make up lesson after that... i quite like this arrangement...

so now i shall assume that yongjie will come out 26th instead... so count down count down... 15 more days to go.... count count count.... realise that i have waited for 37 weeks... yet another 2 weeks seem longer than 37!!!! errr~~~~ ok i shall be patient patient patient...

Thank God, my cousin is on school holiday till 18 April... so this period of time she will on and off be at my place help me entertain my two fellows so that i could have more time to rest... after i give birth, she will stay at my place during weekdays to help me attend to them so that the confinement nanny can concentrate on me and yongjie... i would say she is of great help!!!! really... but the only thing i worry is that after she leave, will the kids still demand that kind of entertainment which i will not be able to cater.... May the Lord help me in this area.. let the kids be able to enjoy ah yi's companionship, yet able to know that kind of companionship is a bonus.... and will not demand so after that...


friends out there, pls pray with me n keep me in ur prayer...
dear father God, please give me more wisdom, prepare my heart so tt i can effectively take care of my 3 kids. take control of the whole delivery process, clense every equipements that the medical staffs will be using to deliver yongjie... let the procedure be smooth and quick and painless... let yongjie be healthy and happy... thank you Lord for another precious child You are giving me. in Jesus name Amen...

give thanks

have sorted and uploaded the children's growing up photos recently. by looking at the pics, many memories were flashed back.

the moment when i realised i was preggy with yongen... it was such a miracle to me... i thought i would have difficulty conceiving due to my irregular menses... even the doc also told me my chance is lower than normal women... but i was sooo keen to have a kid soon... actually for the sake of my in laws... cuz i thought they already near 70 and they would sure love to have at least a grandchild soon.... i myself grew up, being sooo close to my granny... thus i love my kids to have the 'granny love' kind of childhood too...

when i noticed my first preggy is a girl, i thought my in law and parents would be disappointed... i mean i thought most elderlys love to have grandson... in fact i myself felt disappointed and cried when the scan showed its a girl... dw and i kept thinking we would have a boy first... but later that, i apologosed to my unborn gal and accepted the fact... actually its good to have gal first.. she really helps alot...


after giving birth to my gal, i thought of having another boy asap... thought that it would be pleasing to my in law, hubby and of course my parents side... and i myself were hoping to parent a boy too... Thank God, he answered prayer. my second child is indeed a boy... a wonderful cute boy... but after having my boy, i realised my inlaw actually prefers gal to boy... hmmm~~~~

u wont believe this, while i was still in hospital after giving birth to my first two kids, i already hoping and planning in my mind when am i gonna have my next kid... kekeke... i am not intimidated by the child birth process at all... in fact i like the feel of giving birth... i love the anticipation... i enjoy the moment when i finally meet my tummy products... kekeke...

dw was the one who actually 'kiv' the third child arrival... and this made me thought he only wanted 2... later then he told me he didnt want me to be too stressed out... if the kids gap are close, it would be very difficult to handle... he said it would be ideal if the second one is 3 years gap from the third one... to me, its such a long wait....

when yongqi was about 2 years old, out of our expectation, i was pregnant! but that baby did not make it... i miscarried at week 6, only found out when it was at 9th week... that was a very big blow to both dw and i... even yongen was sad about the news. this experience really hit me hard... i treasure even more my pregnancy from then..

I waited and waited, prayed and prayed... asking God when would He send me another precious baby... My faithful God finally allow me to pregnant again 7 months after my miscarriage.. this time, i hope that it could be another boy... cuz dw wants another boy... and i guess my parent side would love to have one more grandson too... and my faithful God grants me my wish...

now i am 32 weeks preggy... since my gynae wants to induce me at week 38, i am 6 weeks away from meeting my yongjie... how excited i am... esp seeing friends' newborns around me popping out one by one... sooo looking forward...

i realised dw has been sooo busy recently eversince school reopens... he is as busy as that time when he first teach... i remember that time i was soooo depressed due to his busyness... when he gets busy, he gets tired. so i have to most time attend the kids myself... this time round, i find that i am able to handle his busyness better than last time.. maybe its cuz we both got used to each other style and routine so we know when we should step in and when we should give each other space... another reason is, the kids have grown big le... sometimes yongen can really help me alot, be it task wise or emotional sharing part... last time i had only dw to tslk to.. now yongen can be another listener and helper...

i really thank God for my family, hubby and children... other than that, my church my friends also contributed alot in my life. my church pig and dog friends never fail to help me attend my kids... they also helped me release very much of my stress too by asking me out to spend money... kekeke...i really feel blessed. really. thanks to all of you. thanks to my good and faithful God.

will be induced during march holiday

i went for my gynae appointment yesterday. my appointment was supposed to be in the morning as there was another patient planning to undergo induce labour on the same day and was expected to deliver in the noon or afternoon... who knows, she was in natural labour early morning thus resulted the doctor needed to attend her first and came back to the clinic only at 11am... this really made me panic as my plan was to fetch the children and bring them to mac after my gynae appointment. the children's school ends at 11am!!!! Therefore, i started to call for help... but none was available... left with no choice, i called the kindergarten, requested them to keep my children for an extra hour while i would rush to fetch them before 12.10pm. thank God the kindergarten was willing to help... but they said this would be the one and only exception... in fact i could understand... if all parents have this kind of request, the kindergarten will be in difficult position... Really thank God that they were willing to make exceptional help...

during my discussion with my gynae, she told me base on my past two birthgiving records, the possibility that i will go into labour myself is not high. If thats is the case, she may need to induce me before my week 40 gestation cuz she does not want the baby to be too big. she hopes that the baby will not be more than 4kg as she hopes that she need not perform episiodomy on me... and i honestly confessed to her that i am also facing difficulty as in if i am to go into labour while my children and hubby are in the school, i would need to fetch my kids to a caregiver and admit to the hospital by myself as there is very low chance that i could contact my hubby once he is on duty in school. the chance that i will have to handle labour and childbirth by myself is quite high since my EDD is after the school term holiday... i asked her if i am to go into induce labour, can i choose it on 1 April then as 2 april is good friday, dw can accompany me... she said no as the baby by then would be really too big le... then she asked me would it be good if she induce me during the school holiday? and i told her of course it would be the best timing during the school holiday... but i really wish that my baby can be 'breed' till full term.. and she told me after week 37, it is considered full term le....if she induce me on the 15th march (ie on the monday of the holiday) i am already in the 38th weeks. so it should be fine... she told me for my case, it is really better to have a planned labour. cuz other than the above reasons, another reason is she stayed quite far away from east shore hospital (though her clinic is just bearby). In case i go into labour in the morning or evening (when she on the way home, near home) during the peak hour when there is heavy traffic jam, she may not be able to rush to the hospital on time. Thus the best thing is i go into labour when she is in her clinic... (the clinic is just two street away from the hospital)

after the discussion, we move on to the scan... though i have controlled my sugar level well, and i have only gained 700g, (in fact only 400g... after i clear my bowel at the clinic, i weighed myself again) my baby is growing big and has gained 700g, hitting the weight of 2kg at gestation of 31 weeks 3 days!!! my baby has a big head which measurement is equivalent to week 34 or 35!!! he also got big feet! measured 6.6cm (3 weeks ago was 5.5cm). trunk (body) wise he is about 33 weeks (ok with that)... and thigh is bit short, 30 plus weeks... after all the measurements, my gynae, once again confirmed it would be right decision to induce earlier.... the only problem now we facing is, the baby is still in breech position. so we need to pray for the baby to turn around before weeks 37. doc said baby would turn before week 37. after that, there is no much space for him to turn le... so please keep me in prayer. yong en prayed for me last night too...

doc said most probably she will induce me beginning of the week (ie, monday or tuesday) so that dw can have more time with me before school reopens... but the actual day is yet to be set... dw needs to give me a reply whether he is able to arrange his remedial classes on thursday and friday, or whether he has got any meeting on monday or so....haiz, so busy... till seh gia also need to be planned like this...

oh ya, also not forgetting wendy's request to enter labour ward with me to video the whole procedure... sorry wendy, the gynae said this is not encouraged. she said sometimes it could be very gan jiong and cramped when mummy starts delivering... thus 'extra person' should be kept minimum... plus the hospital also has policy not allowing people to video the whole process and private scene of the patient unless special permission granted for educational purpose...she said even the spouse, they are only allowed to video and take pic after the baby comes out... so answer to your request is no....

i really hope that this decision to induce at week 38th is a decision that the Lord allows. I am also praying that if the Lord does not like this decision, let me have no peace about it....

Oh God, please let me know if You are happy with all these decision....

Good year of blessingssssss.....

Its the second week of school reopen... so far so good... the morning three hours free time is real good... for sleeping!!! kekeke....

Thank God, yongqi adapts well in school. he likes school very much. He would come back with chinese nursery rhyme and songs... he is also a 'chinese person' like his dad...

the funny thing was when we asked him what did the teacher tell him or teach him today, he would answered 'teacher said sit down'... kekeke... i guess he had been walking around in the classroom... today he told me when he reached home, 'teacher did not angry me' i asked him did he walk around in the class, he said no... kekeke... guess thats why the teacher was not angry with him today!

yongen started this year well too... i have been doing revision on addition and subtraction with her and she could handle them well... esp on addition, she could do addition up to 20..

she also passed her first chinese ting xie and english spelling well. she scored 2 upon 2 for the ting xie and 4 upon 5 for her spelling (mispelt 'brush' as 'brsh')... considering the amount of time she spent on her spelling, i think she was very good le...

this year is a good year, i believe. so much good things has happened in january (oh ya, yongen knows how to spell 'january' now, within 4 days after school started,.. i am so proud of her...) God will bless us even more in year 2010.

Firstly, the school my hubby teaches in has changed principal... and this principal, to me, is a more practical and family focused person...

secondly, my hubby's last year students had scored well in their O level maths. among the students he taught last year who took the O level exam, only one failed. and he said that the school's overall performance on maths has improved tremendously. Thank God for that.

Talking about O level exam, how can i not say my cousin's O level english result? finally she passed and clear her english paper!!! yay!!!! this is really a great news for us!!!! FYI, she has taken the exam 3 times... each time she improves by 1 grade. from E8 to C6!!! I have yet never heard of anyone who scored so badly in an exam, but pressed on till he/she passes... until my cousin did it! i really salute her perserverence!!! Well done, lin!!! i am proud of you! :))

next, of course, another blessing arriving and i have been waiting is the arrival of my yongjie, which will be end of march! The Lord has blessed my pregnancy soooo much.... He gives me the ability to make my sugar under good control and He also helps me to control my weight... so far when i was 7 months preggy, i only gained 7kg!!! compared to preggy when i carried yongen i gained 23kg and preggy with yongqi i gained 15 kg overall!!! kekeke... i believe after giving birth, i will slim down easily...

really thank God for this year so far... i am looking forward to count and witness the Lord's more blessing to coming... Amen!!!

新年的展望

前些日子在网络上遇见二姐在线上，于是我们便闲聊了起来。

她问我对新的一年有什么新的展望？顿时之间，这问题似乎问倒我了。以往都喜欢在岁末写年录和新年展望的我，今年好象没有什么去想过这问题。是因为自己的脑袋不再思考了，还是因为自己已经在舒适的区域里麻木生活惯了，把一切理所当然化了？

其实不是自己没有展望。当二姐列出她认为是我新的一年的展望时，我都对她所列出的一一赞同。

首先，肯定是小宝贝勇杰的出世。我等了勇杰有一段日子了。可说是有一年之久吧！打从我上一次的怀孕失败后（去年11月的事），我和东威便渴慕快快再度怀孕。终于，上帝怜悯我们，让我在今年7月受孕，而且怀的是男孩。虽然咏恩和家翁家婆比较喜欢女孩，但是东威、我和许多的朋友都希望这一胎会是男孩。东威的原因是他觉得女孩到了一个阶段，他和孩子在身体接触上（如拥抱）会有一些限制（东威是一个很东方传统思想的人，他觉得男女应保持一些距离。。当然除了与伴侣之外。。。）我则希望勇齐会有一个玩伴（咏恩已经有3个表姐妹为伴了）。况且，东威和其他亲戚朋友的期望（希望孩子是男孩）也会多多少少影响我的期望。至于其他人的原因，那可要问他们了！！！ 嘻嘻嘻嘻！！！

我切切期待三月底的到来。其实来到这阶段，我想三个月并不难熬。再过几天，咏恩和勇齐就上学了。这是勇齐第一年上学。因此，我感到很兴奋。（对了，我希望两个孩子，尤其是勇齐，的身体会健康，抵抗力会很强）。我相信他会很喜欢学习。:)

他们上学，也就是说，我早上会有三个小时的空挡时间。我可以休息或用来完成还没完成的DVD学习。

开学的一个多月后就是华人新年了。这是我一直以来最喜欢的节日。今年很特别。因为是我第一次挺着个大肚子去拜年。我已经买好了过年的衣服。我迫不及待地想穿上它们游街去！当然，我也没有忘记为老公、孩子们添购新衣物的乐趣。其实自从我有了孩子之后，购买孩子们的物品似乎比购买自己的东西来得有趣！

过了华人新年，我就要为准备勇杰的衣物和床铺忙碌了。这真是叫我感到无比的兴奋！接着，就是好好地休息，养精畜锐地倒数日子！:)

我的预产期是在三月28日。就是学校term holiday 之后的一个星期。若是这一胎和以往两胎一样足月才生(满40周），我可能会面对自己一个人去医院的情景。我为此事祷告，求神让我在最好的时间分娩。好的时间的意思是，在勇杰足月，东威在我身边，咏恩、勇齐也有人帮我照料的情况下。我想不出有如此好的时间。但神的智慧高过我的智慧。我拭目以待他给我最好的时间。

我希望勇杰是个健康、快乐、乖巧且有智慧的好孩子。求神给我智慧来爱护他、教育他！

生产后，我希望自己能够坚持到底地给勇杰哺乳两年。我希望自己有足够的奶水，勇杰也会和我合作，晚上可以睡彻夜，好让我有足够的原因坚持到底（上一次我就是因为勇齐晚上每一、两个钟头就起来吮吸而决定在他10个月大时给他戒奶）！

另外，我希望自己在坐月子期间能好好地休息。我现在其实就已经很思念坐月子时吃的食物了。。。Yum Yum!!

说到吃，也让我想起我的另外一个期望。我希望生产完后可以瘦身，达到我刚结婚时的身材。。。嘻嘻嘻！！！我可是对这梦想充满憧憬喔！:)

最后，另一样让我兴奋的事是咏恩明年就要报读小学了。我希望她会顺利地进入工商小学。这学校是打从我搬到现在住的地方后就锁定的目标。

哈哈哈！我想这一些期望已经够我“忙”了吧！或许有人会纳闷为什么我没有提到关于自己的灵命或服事之类的期望。。。哈哈哈。。。孩子是上帝给的产业。我今年把焦点放在孩子和家庭身上，也就是将焦点放在服事上。我的孩子和家庭对我明年来说就是我服事的岗位。我会继续在咏恩的灵命方面打好基础，在勇齐的意识上让他认识上帝，在勇杰的属灵层面上迫切祷告。这就是我明年的服事。至于自己的灵命，我会继续在读经祷告的习惯上下更多苦功。。。求主耶稣与我同在，帮助我。愿我的展望是主所喜悦并愿意成全的。 Amen! :)